I Miss You !

Why do we miss people? Why do they make that big a difference in our lives ? Why do they add so much to it that life seems worthless without their presence?

Ever since I got to know you, ever since I met you, you’ve gradually added confidence and love to every second of my life. The essence of your presence, the mere fact that you’re there for me all the time brings so much comfort to my day and my whole life. I have never appreciated the fact that you take on so much when I’m leaving or am gone, as much as I do now. I don’t only know how it feels; I feel it every day while you’re gone. I miss you, I miss your presence, I miss the life I have with you around, I miss coming back FOR YOU, I miss every day, every moment, every second of my time with you.

The only thing that brings me comfort while you’re gone, that draws a smile on my face is the hope that you’re having a really great time. I would give anything I can, anything in my whole world to bring happiness to you and to keep your happiness present forever. Your happiness brings me happiness, and your love brings love to my world, and to anything that surrounds you and me.

Come back, your country awaits you, along with me. Bring back my heart and mind and keep it close to me by staying by my side. Lighten up my days, lighten up my world, and make my life wonderful all over again. I miss you.

The Jewel

Throughout our lives you were our one and only mentor, the one and only person we went to for advice towards the correct path to success. You have steered our family through moments of extreme happiness, as well as moments of extreme grief. Your love, your support, your advice, your very presence has inspired us – your children – in every aspect of our lives.

We have always looked at you as a role model, and continue to look at you the same exact way every day. We look at you as a symbol of family unity, as a symbol of the battle you took upon your shoulders against life and all the hardships that have come upon you and us as a family.

Your eldest son, one of your biggest admirers, begs you never to change. Never change our outlook towards you, and never go against everything you have stood for throughout your entire life. We still need the role model we see in you. We still need that person we turn to for hope and inspiration. We still need our father and his very presence.

Confidence

What is confidence? Confidence in my opinion is being able to resist a nervous situation. A confidence boost is when you get extra confidence from an event, a situation, or maybe when you are at a certain state of mind or heart. Going through my life for the past few months, I have been able to boost my confidence through every certain thing I did.

Every peak has a downfall sometime or another is how I see it, and I have slipped today in a very unexpected moment where I thought I was under control. The thing is, thinking about it made me jot down the different things in my life recently that may demoralize me, and I went through a list of meaningless things that eventually put me down even more. Fortunately, I got a grip on myself and found out that I have been in a perfect condition, thanks to the Almighty, in every situation I have been in. This may sound ridiculous, but the way you think sometimes, the way you view yourself, truly reflects on what you are or even how your physical actions turn out to be. Therefore, push yourself to the extent where you feel like you are starting to fall, then catch yourself once again with a thought that would lift you to an even higher peak.

Other than that, a perfect semester came to an end this month, and I was very proud of my grades, since I was able to perform even above my expectations thanks to my love for what i’m doing and the support of everyone around me. I have come to realize that without certain people in my life, I could not have steared through a fierce storm that was headed towards me.

My whole views, my perspective on life has changed a lot and I was, and still am, very proud of the development I have experienced. Forward thinking is what I needed, and continue to need, and sooner or later I would be able to influence people, and lead them the way I want to, wherever it is and whatever I do. I continue to move forward, face every bump on the way with an open mind and heart and would hopefully reach the destination all this is building up for.

Significance of events

Surrounded by life, by beauty, by wonderfulness here and there, people tend to realize that although they have all these things around them, circling them, sometimes they just want more. At other times the same people might not only want more, but also want things that are not important at all. Maturity, usually resulting from life experiences throughout the years will drop you right on the port of putting some thought in some aspects of life, as a result showing you that you can always be truly happy with satisfaction, but realizing constantly and forever that there are more important things in life than these wonderful things that surround us. This is the key to a person’s true wisdom and satisfaction, and in turn, a person’s true happiness over time.

Continents, countries, and people within them all have conflicts, inner and outer ones. People lose their minds, their basic principles, sometimes even going down to their basic savage human instincts to get to things they want, even if these things, if looked at from outside the box, are invaluable.

When people do lose their own minds and hearts into things they want really badly, they forget about religion, about prosperity, about human etiquette developed through history, and make themselves unhappy. They just seem to drop their past breathtaking experiences, their happiness, and the things that really matter.

The main idea my dear reader behind this post is to ask you to keep in touch with your mind, with your heart, and with the truly wonderful things around you, but at the same time not forgetting that a world exists out there and there are much more important things than things you want, sometimes even the things you already have that make you happy. Sometimes you might end up giving up these things that you pursue, but when it’s for the greater good, when it’s for the prosperity of your own mind and heart, it might be necessary to give up a lot more than just that.

Expectations.. reflections on a mistake !!

You always go through moments when you try to analyze things, allow them to fill you, but then you have those moments that make you feel empty, or out of this world. Sometimes you have moments that make you feel you’re floating in the air out of happiness, while you might at other times feel you want to be dug underground and are never let out into this world from all these astonishingly depressing things that are getting to you every day. An expectation defined means you are waiting for something to happen, or are hoping that something would go in a way you want it to go or feel like it’ll go. When you expect something, you expect it out of a person, or out of an event, with results that can be either amazing or disheartening.

People in this world make up the biggest part of expectations, especially loved ones. Expecting to be considered is so easy to think of, yet on the other hand when you’re not considered, you feel you’re lost or have that questioning mood instilled in you where you question yourself or the steps you’ve taken to allow that to happen. I for one, have given up so much in order to get huge results out of my expectations, and I really hope that I do get the results I always hope for. On the other hand, I can easily get dispirited by my hopes especially when it comes to the closest people in my life.

Although you get discouraged sometimes, you always look forward; look for a way to correct your path when it comes to expectations. Your first instinct when you get rejected or tend to be blocked by an expectation is protecting yourself, the way you think, and the way you feel. Mistakes do happen, but correcting them is the hardest thing in this world.

I want to look forward, I want to feel that everything is fine, but I expect returns that are higher than my initial expectations.

A Power Struggle

Sometimes in life, people tend to lose their past, the way they used to live and the way they used to control their lives. I always had so many rules set up in mind, so many constraints to my personal life that I always thought I would have. Losing a bit of faith and switching to a mode that is more “modernized” is what I have never wanted to happen to me. The struggle between what’s right and what’s wrong is what I like to call it. Modernization is important in life, and updating one’s thoughts to accompany those new times in life is important, but at the same time complying with a strict set of rules that have been set by religious and social norms.

The fact that people change and develop is interesting. The fact that they get shaped by their surroundings is very much true, but the choices they make in those surroundings is what makes the difference between a person who knows what’s right and what’s wrong, a person who has complete control over his decisions, and a person who does not actually know what life he or she wants.

My fellow reader, although people go through many hardships in life and tend to shape according to different events or surroundings, the fact that right and wrong is always in existence marks the difference between different people and different groups.

Changing towards the best is what I have promised myself to do, although on the other hand, shaping my life to accommodate those changes has been very hard to accomplish. Struggling with the balance between past and future, while keeping my right decisions intact has been very hard, yet so far accomplishable.

Back

Back in Montreal, and every single time I leave my home in Dubai, I feel I have lost so much. The importance of being next to your family, next to your friends, next to anyone you’ve ever loved can never be described by words. These people stand by you through your hardships, through your success, through everything you’ve ever stood for or are planning to stand for. The joy that beholds me every time I’m surrounded by those people is inexpressible because the feeling of comfort, the feeling of motivation, the feeling of care, the feeling of inspiration, and any other great feeling you can think of is all there. That extra step, that extra leap, whatever the step or leap is, can happen because of those people, because of their care and their belief in you, and because they love you unconditionally.

My mother, father, brothers, sisters, friends, and her, my beloved princess are people I can never live without, are the people that make me want to go to the moon, to mars, to wherever I want to be with my dreams and desires. I appreciate their support. I appreciate their very presence. I had a wonderful time there; I know I want to be there right now, but I know I’m here for a reason; I know I’m here to make their dreams of me accomplishing mine happen.

I have talked to her about leadership, about the great people in my life and how their personalities affected me, and how my admiration for them has turned into an obsession at times. Leadership and the skills that come with it is all around me, as close to me as my very direct family. I believe I can be the leader I always want to be in my field, and I am here in Montreal, studying to make it happen. The unconditional, total support I have from everyone around me is something I needed, and is something I’m going to use to make the leader I want to be, happen.

Strength and desire, courage and love, leadership and motivation, family and support, and you my princess are everything I need, are my weapons to success, and I’ll make sure I never fail you or fail myself.