Big word

Inspiration has been and always will be one of the biggest words in people’s lives. Inspiration is somewhat linked to motivation, thus making it very hard to tell the difference between the two. Inspiration is the difference between those inventors, scientists, engineers, and business men, and those who think of life as a place empty of all or any motivational experiences or motivational goals. A lot of questions arise in my mind when I think of motivation, when I think of things that can make a human being push towards his or her most distant limit. Out of those questions, it is easy to conclude that power, love, money, security, and self-fulfillment of dreams are the biggest factors that tend to motivate people. Some of these motivational tools have been subjects of endless debates, but in my humble opinion exist even beyond my farthest doubts. Inspiration on the other hand is that extra push that allows the person to give more, either in the workplace, or in things that person really loves. Getting that extra push, inspiration, is very difficult because it is usually hard to inspire people or get inspired yourself. To make them get that feeling of creativity, that rush to do something amazing and realizing something they did not know they had in them is very difficult to accomplish. My greatest inspirations and motivators are my dreams; they make me go that extra mile to achieve or succeed in whatever I am doing.

Only successful people or successful personalities are the ones able to spill inspiration into people’s bowls, or get them out of there, and I truly believe that I am already shaping myself to be one of those people.

Catching up

Having the opportunity to learn from great teachers is something that I cherish very much nowadays. From teachers that have been the worse I’ve seen in my life, especially in commuting their knowledge, to teachers who are at ease to what they want to say and how to make it reach not only the mind of the student, but the thoughts that go through the student’s brains. Instead of just knowing a piece of information, you tend to think of it, analyze it, draw a picture of it, and come up with conclusions you never thought you’d have in you. A teacher is perfect if he or she has the ability to allow the students to come up with conclusions themselves when thoughts or facts are thrown at them.

Starting with my “Contemporary and Critical Business Thinking” teacher, and ending up with teachers that taught me last summer, I think that now I’m able to base my knowledge on something that’s attainable, something that really leaves me thinking. Choosing what I want was not only the best decision I’ve ever made, but its turning my life into an interesting circle of information, information I always was curious about.

I was walking outside today, and I bumped into my Macroeconomics teacher, one of the teachers that taught me in the summer. I was surprised that he pushed me backwards, making me look downwards to see a smiling face looking at me and nagging about why I don’t come to visit him in his office. I talked to him for a while, and made him a promise that I’ll come visit him in the coming days. I never thought professors remembered their students unless they kept on showing up at their doorsteps, especially the ones teaching a class of 200 to 300 students. When I walked onwards, I started thinking to myself that he has not seen me since the summer and I haven’t, not a single time, visited him in his office. I am glad that I left a mark in his class, and a mark in his mind of a model student, a student I always wanted to be. I know I’m heading in the right direction now, the direction that I wanted.

The best results are always and will always be achieved by people who are curious and motivated about what they’re learning, and I have never been motivated as much as I am nowadays because of the support I get from the people that matter the most to me. Small things tend to motivate a person when he’s leading himself into his dream. Even if big barriers started to appear, these small motivational events would be the torch that lights the path ahead.

Beauty

Beauty comes in many forms. Beauty can lighten your eyes through different planets, through flowers, through colors, through the moon, or through many different things. Although all these different beauties exist, I have never seen beauty in all its forms blend into one thing, in one person, in her. I have seen the sun set a lot of times. I have seen the beauty of the sun setting on the horizon, leaving that beautiful golden color on the sea, yet I forgot that this kind of beauty exists when I saw her beauty, when I saw the beauty that she bestows on me and on many different people other than me every single day.

It might not be logical to have such a beauty, but a person who has seen the world, who has seen beauty mold into different shapes knows exactly how logical it can be when every single thing in the world that has ever been considered beautiful blends into one person, blends into her. Imagine, my reader, let yourself daze off into different dreams, into different thoughts, whatever you can ever come up with as beautiful can never be compared to her beauty. She is something the world has been waiting to see, she is the beauty the world has always wanted.

If I go on, I will never stop. I will never stop describing her beauty because of the million different words or thoughts that I could put together to compare to her beauty. Fortunately, putting together all these beautiful thoughts, all these beautiful dreams, all these different beauties in the world, neither I nor you would be able to ever equal her beauty with your thoughts, neither will you be able to equal the way I see her every single time I think of her. Whatever beauty you can think of, beauty of heart, beauty of mind, beauty of personality, physical beauty, emotional beauty, anything at all, you would be wrong dear reader in ever thinking she was the maximum of these beauties, because she is way better than your thoughts.

My life goes on every single day, and I regret not thinking of her, not being with her, and mostly not doing anything related to her. My mind, my heart, my desires, and mostly my life, all point to her as if she was the magnetic north on a compass, forcing that arrow to always point in its direction. Whatever I do, every single step I take, every single thought in my mind, is worthless if it does not relate to her, or does not include her.

I would never dare myself to part from her; I would never be able to. I have never been so strong, yet never been so weak at the same time, not without her, not without the beauty that lightens up my world like a candle lightens up a dark room. Musicians put together different musical notes to make different songs fit into different contexts; she is the musician in my world, putting together every single thing that has been missing in it, putting together the different puzzle pieces of my mind, forming me, shaping me into a better person, a stronger one, a much happier one.

It’s an honor having you in my life, I will always be thankful for the happiness I feel when I spend any second with you. My beautiful angel, I will always be grateful for the beauty that you bestow on me every single day.

Exam

If we look back at our history, the precious history of humanity, we will notice that exams have always been there and have always been used to test the knowledge of the examined. But have you ever thought of why exams are there, why they exist, and if they really test the knowledge and smartness of the person being examined, or are they only there to test how well you can memorize or cram some information. Looking back at almost fifteen (15) years of my life, I have realized that throughout my whole life I have been examined time and time again and some if not all of my written exams were pointless.

It is true that exams instill a feeling of confidence and might teach us a lot, but aren’t other methods of teaching more useful? Are exams supposed to throw questions at us with a possibility of one answer depending on what we memorized, or several answers depending on creativity or real smartness or even practicality? Whatever the answers are, my opinion on exams might defer from you dear reader. To me exams should exist not to test our knowledge, but to bring out knowledge we never thought we had. I would rather be asked if my life is in harmony and how it is going to stay in harmony if I think it is, rather than “According to that person, what should you do to make your life harmonious?” Questions should bring up that feeling of creativity and self-awareness that the Almighty has gifted us with, not ask us the steps that we should follow in order to decide the path of our life.

I have been through many experiences with exams, some are simply amazing, and others are not even worth thinking about. It is true that you need exams sometimes in technical material in order to determine if you had grasped the information in the right way or if you have not grasped any of it at all, but if you think of it, is that supposed to be a personal choice or a choice put forth by the educational institute?

I am not against exams, not at all. I am against the fact that exams have turned towards complexity and memorization rather than emphasizing creativity and true knowledge. Looking back at history, was there anyone to test Thomas Edison? Did anyone test Albert Einstein? Or in a more practical world, did anyone ever question or test our beloved ancestors and how they chose to live?

I am...

All through life, you hear people telling you what you need to do to become successful, what you need to feel, what actions you need to take, how you can be successful, how you can perform in every aspect related to your own life. Most of the time you don’t think of or for yourself, you only perform, take action, try to be successful because you think it’s the right thing to do, you think its what you’re destined for.

Wanting to be something becomes a dream, a dream that you can’t grasp or ever get to, a dream that is more like a shadow you’re trying to chase throughout your life. Inspiration becomes like a script, written to you by other people, by what they see in you, by what they want you to be, or what they see you as in your future. Whenever you walk down an aisle, instead of being the person you want to be, the person you always dreamed you wanted to be, you become the person that is shaped by your surroundings, you become the person that is lost between dreams of different people. You become a shadow of your dreams instead of feeling the reality of accomplishing your dream and becoming the person you always wanted to be.

Don’t let anyone tell you what you have to be, don’t let other people’s views change you or shape your life. It is true that you do have to get shaped by your surroundings, you’re not what you are, you are what you’re surrounded with, but don’t let that get to you, don’t let that make you, don’t let that define you. Studying computer science was my life’s dream, was what I always wanted to do, was always what I really loved. As I grew, my views, my dreams, even the environment around me changed and because I changed my life’s dream, I had to change every single thing in my life. Now, my dreams differ, my dreams are my goals and all of my goals are goals that I can achieve, realistic ones. I want to be an Investment banker, I want to be married to the most beautiful girl I have ever known, I want to please my parents, and please my family. Yet, most of all I want to please myself with achieving my dreams and goals.

An outgoing person was what I was, but that is not what I have been changed to by my surroundings. The only times in my life I feel righteous, I feel I’m doing the right thing are the times I surround myself with what I love, with what I need to love, with what I need to do, with what I always dreamt of doing. Chasing myself and the things I wanted to do was all I ever wanted, and I’m finally starting to realize that, finally starting to know that.

Over the past few months, I have set my goals out straight to myself, in my mind and in my heart. I have put a plan forth, although not written, but well carved into my mind and written in pure gold. I have arranged my thoughts, planned for a life I always dreamed of. I got rid of my anxiety, the world that is trying to shape me, and most of all the effects of people on me. I cannot deny that I am who I am because of the people I’m surrounded with, but I can’t be any prouder and honored. Although I’m proud of the people around me, the kind of people that I always wanted in my life, and the great effects they have had on my world, I still won’t let anyone shape my world, shape my desires, and most of all shape my dreams for me.

What I need to be is what I want to be, what I always wanted to be, not what I believe I “could” be or what people believe I should be. I define myself, my dreams, and my reality. I am what I am and I’m going to be what I dream to be.